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Thursday, November 5, 2009

and I still haven't found what I'm looking for


12pm Thursday and I see a large spider crawling up the shutters.

I am procrastinating in all absolution, partly because I'm just like that, and partly because I don't feel any push to work.

The semester's coming to an end! All final assignments will be done with by next Tuesday. And then what happens next?

Photography :DD

A part of me - okay, more like almost all of me wants to move on to the next semester as quickly as possible - but a part of me also says hey, slow down, are you sure you want to move on with this. Sure sure for sure. Sure sure you want to continue this course and everything in it?

Ehh, I tak tau lah.

I've been doing some comparisons. SAM students are currently sitting for their finals and tearing their hair out over Math and such, and I tried to picture myself doing so. I couldn't. Augh there is no way I could go back to textbook learning, to numbers and f(x) and chemical equations which I cannot seem to write anymore. Yet at the same time, looking at my current assignments and the way I handle my deadlines, I'm not entirely sure this is what I'm cut out for.

Maybe I'm just too lazy.

Okla that part is 99.999999% true.

Buuut, a little nagging voice in my head (among other nagging voices - maybe I'm schizophrenic! TEH HORROR) tells me I could be doing other things, I might be doing other things, I might like other things more than this, I might be doing something else and find that I love it so much I don't want to do anything else for a long long time and that's what I want because honest to God I don't quite feel that way about DESIGN and what I've been doing the past 3 months, or make that, the past 9 months.

I suppose I just haven't discovered what it is that they call passion.

Or maybe I have. Actually, I probably have, in bits and pieces, and probably in areas I don't excel in enough to survive.

I do not want to waste any more money, nor time.

I don't think anyone wants to waste money or time.

(Anyone being people who realise how rapidly things can change.)
ranting about the world at 12:00 PM
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Sunday, November 1, 2009

I SEE THE ENEMY


This is dedicated to Hannah the Soulmate because being in church yesterday and today made me laugh and not think so much about all the work that needs to be done and a good part of it must be credited to her;

Quote of the day:

The Carrot Patch (The Soulmate)

Object of the day:

Rolling pencil on the piano in church


...That and flying papers which slid off the church piano bookstand today. You wait lah Soulmate. Your turn to play next week while I stand by and laugh :D

It seems that eating peanuts in church brings the lols. We shall see how it goes next Sunday :D

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ranting about the world at 9:58 PM
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Friday, October 30, 2009

Char Siew you're getting so fat!





I dreamt of Char Siew last night

He was running about on the porch

And kept jumping in between the grille and sliding door like always

I always told him one day he would get stuck
ranting about the world at 11:48 PM
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Sunday, October 25, 2009

What kind of English Assignment requires designing calling cards?


I want Cottage Fries now.

In the past four hours, I've eaten fish and chips, a chocolate doughnut, a Danish mushroom chicken pastry, a couple of Chipsmore cookies, three blueberry tarts, half a muffin and a tiny winy piece of chocolate.

DEAR GOD why lah now got craving.
ranting about the world at 12:05 AM
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Sunday, October 18, 2009

oh belated birthday!


I just realised something.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG YIH SHAN!

And I am eternally sorry that this is only appearing now when your birthday was over a long time ago but I was scrolling down the page and saw that I posted one for Jen anyway and I must must post one for you too because you all are the ones I hold close to my heart and oh we must make Friday outings with EVERYONE a weekly thing yes no yes?

By the way, I like your piano :DD yayy, another home to terrorize now (first is Shu Lyn's). Muahaha.

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ranting about the world at 9:29 PM
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WE'RE ON SPEED






Picture credits to Joanna :)

"Well, you sleepwalking is better than me going senile, right?"

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ranting about the world at 9:25 PM
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Saturday, October 17, 2009

MAMA, OOOO


I figure I should update!

Buuut, I'm too good at procrastinating and falling asleep. I just realised, I haven't even loaded the pictures taken at Darul's Raya open house into my computer - sucha champ I am!

Some of my CLASSMATES are so stressed out over our final assignments and I'm not, but I'm well on my way to being so. I'm getting stressed over the fact that I'm not stressed out. Been totally enjoying my weekend with the gang - or rather, half the gang - eating Lays and Cottage Fries and playing a very very nice piano! and going out with the family, my aunt was in a very good mood today because she didn't have to layan the grandpies. LOL. My grandpies are awesome yo. I suppose the three of them just get tired of each other because they live in the same house. A very understandable situation, I think.

I ate so much today. FAT gila.

I have to say, sometimes I wish I hadn't said "yes" to buying a Clavinova instead of a regular upright piano. I made that rather unobtrusively clear today at lunch with the mother and the aunt while talking about pianos and music, but my mother also made it rather clear that we will not be buying a new piano anytime soon. Bahh.

Sejurus kemudian, my aunt asked if I'm going to continue my violin studies, saying that violin teachers are in demand (rare mah). I said no, several times, because she asked several times. -.-
But who knows, maybe someday I will. Good side income. Woots.

Now I am feeling that familiar stress of not knowing if this is the right thing to do. God I tak tau lah. I'd really like you to give me an answer, but I'm scared to chicken bits about what it could be - what if my calling is to do something totally unrelated, or the answer is to drop all this and go into one of those fields I've always said I would avoid? HMMM.

Okay time to sleep. Church tomorrow and I want to finish my book before I turn in. Goodnight everyone!

Oh, and Happy Birthday to all the September and October babies! :D

Just saying that because I plan to do a birthday post but you know me. Chances of it failing to materialise are unfortunately, rather high.

:D
ranting about the world at 11:34 PM
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Friday, September 25, 2009

ARE YOU GONNA EAT THAT?



As promised;



The lemon meringue pie made by Shu Lyn. So good.



A happy birthday to two aweshome people; Jen and Yih Shan! Yay, almost everyone's eighteen now :D








Aughhh I think they're right when they say Blogger reduces the quality of your images. They look so cacated here. Sorry bbs. Click to enlarge.








We need another sleepover! We didn't even accomplish all the things on S'L's agenda. So much for emo heart-to-heart session. I think we were all super sleepy somehow that night; everyone KO-ed (including me, and I'm usually one of the last to sleep.) after Finding Nemo except for S'L and KM. Tak da stamina wehh.

Oh, well, it was good times still :)


PS. SEA MONKEY STOLE MY MONEY

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ranting about the world at 11:52 PM
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Thursday, September 24, 2009

IT'S AN ANOMALY. ANOMALIES BUG ME.


I feel like Martha Stewart today!

Not that I'm a fan, mind you. In fact, I can't stand her; it's only my mother that watches her show every day.

But I'm just saying so, because today I was rather domestic: I visited my grampies :P, bought groceries, baked a cake and made dinner. Wuhuu.

The washing up part was so not fun though.

Respect to my mother and all the mothers out there for cooking and cleaning day in day out for bums and sloths like me and you.

I can hear the stray cats yowling in my back alley. The big black one came into my house this morning and totally trashed the place. Ransacked the bin, pooped on the floor and left prints all over the furniture. I don't think there'll be any mercy from my father towards them cats from now on.

Augh I haven't done any college work at all so far this week. A holiday is a holiday, right?
ranting about the world at 11:55 PM
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

roti sardin @ melur is baad





Teaser of things to come!

I really want to put up those sleepover pictures, but I'm getting so sleepy I can't finish editing so goodnight!

OH OH HOUSE PREMIERE WUHUUU
ranting about the world at 11:47 PM
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Sunday, September 20, 2009

that thing called marriage



I found a draft I typed some 1000 years ago.

Good filler before the pictures come in :DD

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Have I mentioned that I don't like Facebook tags?

But PeiLyn the Pink and Perky tagged me from her blog and I know she won't let me get away without doing this.


1. How old are you?
Eighteen

2. Are you single?
No I'm triple. Triple X - rated. Triple H. UGHH I never liked Triple H.

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
After 25, before 30.

4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
Sure, I can see the future.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
HAHA. I could give you a whole list. Let's see, Hugh Laurie but he's married and old enough to be my father, Zachary Quinto but it's getting harder not to think he might be gay. I want to marry a musician actually.

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
Bridesmaid(s) : Pei Lyn, Jen, Shu Lyn, Sue Mae, Liza, Yih Shan, Zen and more! :)
Bestman: I thought the groom chooses for this

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
Oooh, beach wedding fo sho!

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
We'll go to kayamoon. Okay don't mind me. Europe or Mauritius.
(Seriously, though, why is it called "honeymoon"? Google wuhuu.)

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Umm, that depends on what kind of wedding it is - Chinese dinners always have at least 200, but I like smaller weddings lah.

10. Will that include your exes?
What if I don't have an ex? Haha.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
At my grandfather's birthday dinner, they brought out a cake for us to cut and it was fake. Turns out that's how they do it at most weddings. So if I have a real one which I think I will, I'm not sure I want layers - designer wad. Must be "different". I'll design my own cake wuhuu! Raspberry and chocolate fudge ice cream cake. Whoa.

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Evening, because I'm lazy like that. On the other hand, mornings have a nice feel.


13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding
It might change by then. Falling Slowly or There For You sounds good though.

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon, fork and knife?
Normals. Fine dining might get everyone all worried about whether they're doing it right.

15. Champagne or red wine?
Champagne

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
I always thought you get whisked away on the wedding night. Wahaha moving too fast adi.

17. Money or household items?
Both. Greedy thing.

18. How many kids would you like to have?
Limit's four. It's already enough to make me buy a Jeep.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
Errr. I think so? But isn't it meant to be private? Bahaha.
( I so need that miang emoticon from MSN right now)

20. Color of your wedding dress?
White! I'm tempted though to be different and go yellow or something.

21. Wedding Card?
Small so we can save paper. Designed by us. And handwritten names :D

22. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
      Okay you know what. Since there's this whole CLASSMATES thing going on (inside joke, will provide details if you ask), let's get them (although I doubt they will do it. So come on la and prove me wrong :D ) Nicholas, Yi-Vonne, Darul, Lawrence, Ee Won, Kar Heng :DD
ranting about the world at 11:45 PM
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

whoaaa yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.



Well hello again!

The caffeine rush is holding up surprisingly well. Now I have only to decide if I should continue with my cardboard work until I nod off, or go to sleep now and get up early tomorrow to do more. I'm rather afraid any attempts to wake up early won't go so well, especially after today (I woke up nice and early, had breakfast and then took a 5-minute nap before showering which turned into half an hour of snoozing).

I just used the word "early" thrice in three sentences. Fish it.


I is hungry.

Very hungry.

Late nights are bad for your skin.


TRALALALA, I WANT MURTABAK NAO.
ranting about the world at 3:57 AM
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